A Letter for Kak Melinda

To my dear Kak Melinda,

Hi sis... How are you? I hope you are fine... I'm doing okay here.. So as the rest of the family.. Err.. Firstly I think  I owe you an apology... I wanna send an actual letter to you but since you've changed your address so I guess its no use to send you one and since I really felt to write you some especially before I go for further studies, I pour my heart on writing to you by writing it on my blog... I know the chance for you to read this is so small because I'm sure that you didn't know I have a blog page... Anyway I just wanna say that I really looking up to you... You are my idol... Heh.. I know its funny because we're not even studying in the same thing but I've pushed myself hard to keep up with your success in my own way... Everything that I do I'd always compared to what you would do if you're in my situation.. I know I'm not as good as you in sorting things out since I don't have any specialty in phsycology like you do... I meant like not being a caunselor like you but I want to run my life like you do... Cleverly, cunning, never gave a chance for trouble to knock you down... Just for you to know, I'm crying while writing you this... Hahahaha... Isn't funny.. Its proof that I'm still way far from being in your level... You never talked with emotions in any conditions.. I really respect you for that................and also envy you for that too... You made it like its so easy.. Forget that kay.. I'm just babbling.. Hahaha.. Before you fall asleep for reading this(if you reading it), I wanna tell you that I'm now finished school.. I'm about to enter the real world... Though I only got the chance to further my studies in local university this september..If I got an offer to go to Australia then it will really be fun.. We can hangout often and maybe be the best of mates!! But never mind... I'm still gonna do my best here because I know the challange is the same.. I know you are proud of me... Damn I really missed you sis... Oh! does your friend still call you Mel? Haha.. You know your mom doesn't like it much.. Haha... I don't know why but somehow that thing suddenly crossed my mind... While I busy on how to proceed my life to the next level and what to do with it, Soufi and Melissa are both struggling in their big exams this year.. These exams will determine which school they're going to go next year.. Dad's always full teaching them.. Haha... They go to tuition and all but still, they need home tutor.. That what dad said though.. Mom's busy making new curtain for the comming holiday... She got high blood pressure now but she's doing fine... Everyone is taking care of her.. So don't you worry bout her kay... I wish I can know you better... Well I mean our siblings like a special case right.. We have dad being a navy once before... Travelling to Australia... Then you were born, growing up there, studied there.... I know its lucky that our nephew lived there... So you have to stay there and its tough time back then... I never saw you when I was born... First time I saw you was when I'm in my first year secondary school... Do you remember? That time you've already finished your study... At first we're kinda like 'stranger' like feeling................. Okay2 its just me and the others that felt that way.. But you treated us like you've met us for a long time... From there I opened my eyes and started to be like you sis.. Sometimes I felt really jealous with other people that are so close to their siblings... I really wanna know what it feels to have a sister, to have someone that is older than me other than mom and dad in the family.. I admit I went through really bad times in life just to study how to be like you.. but now I think I'm getting better... I think... I'm still trying though.. A lot that I've learned.. So much and I imagine you having the same bad times during your days.... That what I always told myself whenever something doesn't go smoothly... If you can do it why can't I? I really wish that I can go to your place to surprise you... One day you'll see.. I'm gonna pop out of nowhere and make you jump.. Haha... I like your passion with people.. That's why you took phsycology right sis? Mine is for music.. I'm really sensitive when it getting down to music.. That's what makes you fired up to keep on going right? If you nurture your passion well, then nothing can stop you.. That's what I've learned through my life...Well, I think maybe that's all for now sis.. Its already 3 a.m... Don't tell dad kay.. Haha.. We'll meet again.. Remember that I love you soooooooooo much!!!! Know what? I'm still crying.. Haha... Hey don't start to think I'm sissy just by saying this and being in this condition kay.. I'm still a man but I guess its not wrong to express your feeling especially to the best sis ever! See you soon.. I have some good songs for you.. I'll post it in the future..

With love from your brother,
SYAFIQ